Build the Sisterhood

Build the Sisterhood

Build the Sisterhood – the first principle of flight, a manifesto of the Oiselle Volée. Probably the number one reason I joined Volée. From the manifesto it reads:

“We are only as strong as the bonds we build. And while most of us have them, we want to do more. We want to raise the ante in showing how women can support other women. To go further with the sisterhood …fostering strength and leadership not just in competition, but through every action, every day.” – See more at: http://www.oiselle.com/blog/oiselle-team-manifesto

As I settle into my new life, back in sunny Southern California, I am doing a lot of soul searching.  What do I want my life to look like?  The first thing I do when trying to figure out how to do anything, is look around and see how other people are doing it.  So, I’ve spent a lot of time then, thinking about the women around me, their lives, and what it looks like.  I have an amazing collection of sister heroes that I will highlight here.  These are the stories of my #sisterheroes.

A hero is a person idealized for courage, outstanding achievements, or noble qualities. These women are just that: fierce, strong and full of courage to dream big dreams and reach their goals no matter how big or how small.

 There are so many inspirational women out there, I hope to continue to write about those near me.  As the name implies, I plan to focus on women I view as peers, friends, and colleagues, but will not omit those I see as mentors as this series evolves.

Momento Mori

Momento Mori

“Remember that you will die.”

The brevity of life is part of what makes it so special.  When I think about death, I am not really afraid.  No, I don’t want to die, but eventually I will. Instead, I want to make my life here on earth as full of meaningfulness as possible.  Over the past couple of years, I’ve changed my perspective of time an priority.  I heard on Running on Om, a great podcast by Julia Hanlon about life and running and great people, an analogy that the time left you have left in life is like a savings account, and its up to you how to spend your time.  I love this analogy.  Reflecting on death puts a limit to the time you have saved and really forces you to live to the fullest.  I am intentionally focusing on trying to make my relationships more meaningful, not that I valued them less before, but that this is really a priority for me and I want to put my energy into meaningful relationships.

Death or injury can come from anywhere.  Do what you love, with the people you love. Life is too short not to. And don’t forget to #WomanUp2016

Writing prompt from my hero, Lauren Fleshman

Writing prompt from my hero, Lauren Fleshman

In her blog, Ask Lauren Fleshman, Lauren gives the writing prompt, to put pen to paper and write for 2 minutes. “What I really remember about that meal was…

…trying to eat with chopsticks, but anxiety making my hand shake so uncontrollably I could barely get food into my mouth.  I know this is where I belong, but this is not what I should be doing. Discounting my intuition makes me so unhappy.”

I’ve been searching for inspiration, and  am being drawn to the topic of anxiety, something I’ve suffered from without even noticing for years, even decades perhaps. I hope to use this medium to investigate the anxiety I feel and how to perform (in sport career, and life) despite fear and feelings of uncertainty. 

AoM #9 – Simply write about my day

AoM #9 – Simply write about my day

yesterday, like most weekdays, my I woke up to Tim Armstrong singing Wake Up at 5:30AM.  First things first, I go to the bathroom, drink a glass of water, then put the kettle on the stove for coffee.  I decided while moving to switch to french press coffee.  It is tastier, my counter is cleaner, but making it takes a decent fraction of my morning ritual.  While the water is boiling, I clean and prepare the press (and a little bit of the kitchen). For the 30 seconds I wait for the plumeria I hang like a ragdoll, feet shoulder distance apart, knees bent, butt on the cabinets, for a quick #hitreset. Stir the coffee, fill the remainder with water, and put the lid on.  About now, Badger gets up and comes to see what I’m doing.  I say, “Good morning!” and get some kisses and hugs.  He goes back to bed until I am ready to sit.  Once I pour my coffee, I grab my computer and go to the couch.  I didn’t write yesterday. Instead I read.  I read mostly about elite and professional runners.  Most notably, Like a Motherfuckerby Sara ‘Mac’ Robinson. She describes her journy running as a mother, feeling guilty for taking time for herself, away from her brand new human.  Her conclusion is that she better make the most of that time and run like a motherfucker, after all she owes it to her daughter and husband to run like a motherfucker. Now I have inspiration for my marathon trials posters (for which Mac is running)!

Now I realize that I’m cutting close on time so I need to shower.  Good thing its not hair washing day.  I shower, dress, pack my lunch and run out the door.  Thankful that its warming up (in the 50s this morning) and there is no condensation on the car.  My commute is becoming routine, I didn’t even need to look at GPS today.  I changed my route when my office location changed last week.  I get in and go straight to my office to begin the day.

I start work, editing a manuscript from the group that I am joining.  The software I requested is finally ready, so I begin install.  Later, around 8:25, I try to log in to watch the Center’s All-hands meeting.  My computer freezes, I decide to wait it out.  I continue editing on a hard copy I have of the manuscript.  Nothing is happening. Ctrl-Alt-Delete isn’t even doing anything.  Its been an hour, so I manually hard restart the machine.  I’m finally able to log-in.  I get into the Q&A at the all hands. Now my computer restarts on its own.  Okay.  Finally log back into the meeting, and its totally over. Awesome (<- sarcasm). At least I can add my edits to the digital copy.  I realize that I’m getting hungry, so I eat an apple and start my count down to lunch time.  Which is easy because my computer keeps prompting me to restart AGAIN.  After a game of being disrupted every 10 minutes, I set it to postpone for an hour and agree with myself to go to lunch then.

For lunch, I have cauliflower rice, 1/4 a huge ass baked sweet potato, leftover ‘carne asada,’ and an avocado.  Luckily the cafeteria below me has a microwave.  Once I go permanent, I think I will outfit my office with the luxuries of a minifridge to store my lunch in.   Surprisingly, I don’t finish lunch by the time I’m full.  This is good, I’ll have a nice second lunch later in the afternoon.  During lunch, I scroll through instagram.  One post catches my eye. An untranslateable greek work: meraki.  I do some googling about it and find this post and begin to notice a pattern of  what the universe is putting in front of me today.

meraki

After lunch, more editing.  Until I have to drive to another location for meetings.  Meeting 1 is about a project I can work on after this 3 month tour is up. Honestly, it sounds really interesting.  I will probably do it.  It is a good group, interesting work, and if it goes well can lead to collaboration (and funding) for part of my time in the future.  The second meeting is a required meeting for the program.  A more senior engineer, with a lot of initiative to make things happen, is presenting to all of us new professionals.  His main message is that if you find a gap of something you need, then take initiative to fill that gap.  We work for big brother, but our Center is supportive of people making things happen.  Awesome. (<-not sarcasm).

Take initiative.  Work/live with meraki.  Engineer/run/live like a motherfucker.  I get it.  I’ve taken a lot of time away from being passionate about my work.  I have been passionate about technology and making things happen, but not my work, not even my life.  I have taken some time to recover from grad school. I have been cautious, protected.  I am in a position now where I have opportunity at my finger tips.  Its time to go all in. Whole heartedly.  To love what I do, and be my best while I’m doing it.

I end my day with my second lunch and more editing.  When I come home, I feel totally drained.  I forgot my gym clothes in the morning, spent my evening at the grocery store. After coming home, I have intention of working out in our second room, but get distracted by planning dinner and reading about picky bars.

AoM #6

AoM #6

Today’s prompt was to pick a quotation about manhood and write about it. Well, I can’t relate to manhood so I tried to look up quotations on womanhood.  Ironically, many lists of quotations about womanhood are dominated by things men have said.  Go figure.  After searching, I found one that finally spoke to me:

“The best thing you can possibly do with your life is to TACKLE THE MOTHERFUCKING SHIT OUT OF IT.”  -Cheryl Strayed

Life is a wild ride.  We don’t have time to ‘act’ feminine, or manly, to seduce it.  We have to take what we have right now and use what we’ve got to go after what we want.  No one in adult life is going to tell you what you want or how to get it (unless you stay up too late watching infomercials).  Its up to you to decide, up to you to make the life of your dreams.

I chose this quotation because I’m still resonating with #womanup2016.  This year is about bravely chasing my dream life.  It won’t be easy, but I’m sure I can catch it!

AoM#3&4

AoM#3&4

Days 3& 4 prompts are to choose a positive habit you would like to have, and choose a bad habit you would like to lose.  I’ll put these two together.

One thing that I would like to implement is daily stretching. How am I going to do this? Well, I can make time by eliminating a bad habit- sitting on the couch watching TV.  After dinner, I (probably like most americans) sit on my ass and watch way too much TV.  As an introvert, especially when it is dark and damp outside, it is all too easy to just go home, eat dinner, and avoid quality conversation with my husband by becoming a zombie in front of the LED picture box (I almost put CRT, but what is this 2006?).  It is one of those habits I am embarrassed by, so I don’t talk much about it.  When I was so busy and gone all the time, a few precious hours to reboot were very nice to have.  Now, however, it is a bad habit that I would like to limit.

By implementing Operation get up and stretch, I’m sure this will help with my goals of being a fastie, running long distance, and NOT BEING HURT.  Somehow, I never do this though.  This is different from a goal, its more of making small changes to be a better person.  It is one of the steps that I will take to help my chances of successfully meeting my actual goals.

All in all, these are two things that I would like to change.  It doesn’t mean I won’t watch TV, but I can carve out some time to hit reset for my body by not vegging out on the couch.

AoM #2

AoM #2

Day 2: Continuing to work within that idea of constraints, try to write a 6-word memoir of your life so far. This idea is rumored to have originated from Papa Hemingway. The benefit is that with only six words, you really have to filter your life to what you deem most important. It may take you many iterations, but you’ll end up with something that speaks largely to who you are, if not in toto, then at least in this moment in time.”

Woman runs through life; curious, courageous.